This has been a rough end of the year. I’ve had many good things come out of it and can’t say there hasn’t been happy times, but overall? Rough.
Depression and Anxiety.
I can’t use these things as excuses, but I can say they’ve played a part.
I have a big confession.
I’m the heaviest weight I’ve ever been my whole life. And I’ve given into emotional eating the last few months.
I’ve got to change. And not half-heartedly. This is an all time high for weight and emotionally an all time self-esteem low.
I got invited to a 10 week challenge and I can’t even do it. I can’t take a picture of my weight where it is. Even if it’s only that person knowing where I started.
I need to sit down with my household and let them know I can’t keep going on like this. I need their encouragement and accountability. I need to schedule time to make food on the weekends and during the week. I need to define a workout schedule too. And I need to be true to my desires and ACT on exercise and eating right rather than just acknowledging it.
First Ideal Goal: 28 pounds by my birthday in February.
That gives me 7 weeks. That means 4 pounds a week. Probably not ideal for long term loss as the aim should be 2ish pounds a week and I lose slow anyway. But I know I have some holiday and carb weight that should drop fairly easily (about 10 pounds) and will figure a tapering after that.
I don’t want to seem like a hypocrite. I don’t want to share health advice and seem like I’m doing great when I’m not. But I do know better and need to follow what I know is good for me.