Good & Bad News, Obesity, and Plans for Change

After all the imaging – several ultrasounds and an MRI, I know more about how well I am than I do with what is wrong with me. Specifically, I need to recognize and feel blessed that my bones and ligaments are in good shape, and now I know my veins are in great shape too.

My foot and leg specialist examined the MRI and told me that my bones were good; the diffused swelling was probably vascular. The vascular specialist did what most specialists do upon first meeting – they look at the problem area, and prescribe imaging. He said he felt he knew what it was. According to what he saw – reddish discoloration, swelling, etc, I had poor veins that were allowing too much blood to sit in my legs and this could be fixed with non-invasive procedures. I brought up my weight and that my primary doctor thought it could be the culprit and he told me that he could not conclude that my weight affected my leg and caused the issues. I was worried about what poor veins meant at the ripe age of 29.

Then, I got a call a week after imaging, and his answer was totally different. He said my detailed ultrasound showed that my veins were in great health. He assured me I got good genes and at the age of 29, I didn’t need to worry about my veins for a long time. Except, that meant I was ruling something else out and still had no answers. He then told me, go ahead and lose some weight because it could be the combination of a desk job and being obese.

I think those words were as detrimental as if he had told me it was a vein issue. While I am thankful that I have healthy veins, I know that if I needed a procedure done it would be quick and non-invasive. But what he told me? That is the scourge of my existence. The fact that I want to lose weight and haven’t lost much even with effort. It means that I’m finally fat to the point it’s causing extreme stress on my body and I have to do something ASAP. It means that on top of eating better, I need to be stricter and follow a fitness regimen. And I loathe the physical activity part more than watching what I eat.

You see, being fat, more specifically, morbidly obese, and being so most of your life, it’s not a 20 or even 50 pound goal. Every time I hit the gym, I’m working and stressing my body in a mass that is more than half what it ideally should weigh. I’m working on positivity, and on making this journey healthy because the other part of me just wants to use any means necessary. I can’t let that little voice overcome the big voice I’ve created that says I can positively change not desperately change.

I’d like to work out for 45 minutes to an hour at least three times a week, hopefully going up to four.

I’d like to pick 2 days of the week to work on meal planning and keeping on track food-wise. 

I’d like encouraging words, not threats, from people around me. Things like, “I believe in you, let me know how I can support you.” Not things like, “You know, if you don’t lose the weight you’re going to get worse” Or things like, “How come ______?”


3 thoughts on “Good & Bad News, Obesity, and Plans for Change

  1. What are you labs looking like regarding TSH, T3, and Reverse T3? I had been to a good 15 or so endocrinologists before I could get one to prescribe me straight compounded T3 (Liothyronine). It would also help (assuming Hashimotos has been ruled out) to do high dose Nascent Iodine to displace the halides that bind to the receptors and imitate iodine; this could be one cause of “normal” labs and still having symptoms. I’m not trying to preach here but I really feel for you and want to help in any way I can. If you want to talk anytime about what’s helped me in my own journey with similiar but different issues, contact me anytime. Hang in there.

    • Thank you. I have a history of thyroid issues. Basically, I went through college without knowing my thyroid was borderline low and then taxed my adrenals when they were already working harder with the stress of college and only getting 15 minutes to 2 hours of sleep my last semester. After college I finally had a doctor run an extensive panel and go figure I was low, close to borderline.

      Due to some medical mix up, I went from taking a small mcg dose of levothyroxine to a rather moderate dosage. They read a scratch on the paper as a one and voila, .25mcg became 125. I slowly tapered to 75, then changed my eating lifestyle and have subsequently tested in the healthy range from then on. I know about TSH, T3, and T4, but I haven’t heard of Reverse T3 testing.

      At the last test, I asked the doctor specifically if I was still in the borderline range and she said no. I do worry that going back on Synthroid would cause my vitamin D and other levels to plummet like they did before.

      I’d definitely like to talk to you about it further. Thanks for asking.

      • Well that’s not that high of a dose of T4, but if it normalizes you that’s good, reverse T3 can sometimes result for some reasons when taking T4. I was on T4 for three years and it still had me out of the range low for T3 and T4 so it wasn’t doing anything at all and I now take 100 µg of T3, and only then for the first time in years did I notice any difference at all with thyroid function. Of course there’s always the underlying issue of why it is insufficient in the first place but that is much more difficult to figure out. You know back in the old days they used to just dose according to symptoms..

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