I have a hard time sticking to things. I will have amazing bursts of creativity, start working on an idea, and then never see it to completion. I’ll join something and then grow weary. I’ll give 110% to my friends when they call or visit but then sadly be around 70% in touch otherwise.

I could have used the word committed? But sometimes commitment is a ball and chain: something that must be done even if begrudgingly. No, I needed a word that conveyed love in it. I wanted a word that meant all in because that’s where my heart wants to be.

I want to be more devoted in my walk with God, first and foremost. To spend time with Him faithfully in prayer, reading, and study. I’ve heard it all, how He should have the first rights to my time, not what’s left, but if I’m honest, that’s usually what ends up happening.

I want to be more devoted to my family and important relationships. I think this will be the easiest to fulfill but the hardest to not get comfortable in. How do I devote myself when my parents and I have strongly conflicting feelings about something? How do I reach a better “us” with my boyfriend and openly communicate my needs and do the same for him? How do I show my friend miles away I’m thinking of them and invest in them?

Lastly, in my career and everyday life, I want that notion of devoted to help guide me so my yes means yes and my no means no. So I actually love working on myself and applying myself. So I can press on when I grow weary or start to feel indifference. So I can love the changes I am making and chances I am taking.

It’s funny, every year I am very excited to make long lists of resolutions. This year, like writer’s block, none have truly surfaced, and I don’t think it’s not from being less mindful. I truly think, as I have only started to work on “be still and know”, that in my being still, all those little things have faded and a greater objective awaits me with this one word.

Here’s to a strong 2019. Did you pick out a word for the year, or write down some resolutions?